Everytime when I try to look at my future, I see many possibilities- some are good, some are just bad. I am afraid of making the wrong moves because I can never know whether I would be able to come back or not.
"Oh, I kept the first for another day.. Yet knowing how way leads on to way... I doubted if I should ever come back.. (The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost)"
Sometimes, I dislike myself for not willing to venture into new possibilities but thankfully, I do not really crave for lots of fame or glory. I can be modest and happy with what I have.
I always want to help the orphans, to give them a proper lifestyle and decent education everyone living deserve to have. To help them require a substantial sum of money, something that I don't have, having good networking with well known people, people I prefer not to meet, and ideas that can help to kick start my dream, whereby the time to come up with such ideas is a luxury I cannot afford to commit now.
So I am procrastinating this dream. I promise if everything is going well, I will work this out one day.
I am afraid of my present future too. Shall I continue my life in this "adopted" country- Korea? Should I go back to my hometown of Penang, Malaysia? Or should I apply to continue my studies in a non-Asian countries?
I know the future is full of possibilities, no doubt I am very optimistic about that. I will start and make a small step to the front first, maybe to the untraveled path, perhaps this may lead to another exciting adventure one day- like my first unforgettable journey to Korea.
