16 July 2014

I always plan my life, know what I want and ambitiously work hard to achieve my career goals, but somehow, I never know it's okay to sometimes follow my heart on other things in life.

17 September 2013

Fed up with the Malaysian government. How can the government helps only a specific group of people when there were other people regardless of race who really need help? A never ending policy. Sick and tired of all racial politics in Malaysia. Sigh.  

18 May 2013

I will persevere, work hard and become a very successful person one day. I will. 

10 May 2013

I know we cannot be perfect in this world. If we were perfect, wouldn't our lives be better? Everything we do is an accomplishment. No mistakes, happy, get-everything-we-want, and influential. 

11 April 2013

The disappointment of failing my internship application last week still lingers until today. Sigh... Biotechnology major somehow does not really provide much opportunity, especially for foreign students like me, to apply to most companies in Korea. 

Usually, the only opportunity I can get is working in a lab. But I want to experience working, through internship, before I make my final decision on what's the next path in my life. Either work or continue my study.

Guess it is gone by now... :( A bit regret too.

The only consolation was that my dream (maybe bucket list) of going Shanghai becomes closer than ever. Still, I would love to achieve two things at one go..................... 

My mid term starts next week, thesis must be written by end of this month, presentation and another weird mid term exam also end of this month too. I have so little time. 

And I began to crave for chocolate cookies these days. I prefer buying at bakery, coz' they don't have nutritional labels stuck at the packaging. Saturated fats, sugar, sodium and calories! They freak me out!!! Ahhhhh!

Highly unhealthy but how can I deny myself from such small pleasures late at night? 

25 March 2013

Life is so full with decisions. Why can't we all live with just a little less thoughts about making decisions? Honestly in the past, I never wanted to stay in Korea but now, after four years, deciding whether to stay or not is not as easy as it was before. One more year. Will I miss my friends here? Will I remember the nice and sad memories in Korea? If I am to stay in Korea then, will I have the chance to meet my family? Time sure does flies fast and so does the effects of aging. Would I be better off back home in Malaysia? Will I be materialistic, influenced by the society here in Korea? And will I become a better person?

18 November 2012

Everytime when I try to look at my future, I see many possibilities- some are good, some are just bad. I am afraid of making the wrong moves because I can never know whether I would be able to come back or not. 

"Oh, I kept the first for another day.. Yet knowing how way leads on to way... I doubted if I should ever come back.. (The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost)"

Sometimes, I dislike myself for not willing to venture into new possibilities but thankfully, I do not really crave for lots of fame or glory. I can be modest and happy with what I have. 

I always want to help the orphans, to give them a proper lifestyle and decent education everyone living deserve to have. To help them require a substantial sum of money, something that I don't have, having good networking with well known people, people I prefer not to meet, and ideas that can help to kick start my dream, whereby the time to come up with such ideas is a luxury I cannot afford to commit now. 

So I am procrastinating this dream. I promise if everything is going well, I will work this out one day.

I am afraid of my present future too. Shall I continue my life in this "adopted" country- Korea? Should I go back to my hometown of Penang, Malaysia? Or should I apply to continue my studies in a non-Asian countries? 

I know the future is full of possibilities, no doubt I am very optimistic about that. I will start and make a small step to the front first, maybe to the untraveled path, perhaps this may lead to another exciting adventure one day- like my first unforgettable journey to Korea.